beardsley's Blog

We the sovereign Filipino has a duty to serve and to defend our state this is not only the duty of the Government  but also us. For me I do believe to the words of our National Hero Dr. Jose P. Rizal that the youth serves as the vital section of the society. We can make a change to help others and our country even though small things. You dont need to be rich and famous just to help others. You can help them in a simple way like teaching those childrens who cannot go to school because of teir parents ant afford to send them to school. Teach them how to read, write and count.

The words of Mark Twain stuck im my head that "It is better to deserve honors and not have them than to have them and not deserve them". In helping others don't expect financial gain and dont seize opportunities for your personal gain thats the one thing I remeber in our subject NSTP.  When I saw the commercial of CHEEZWIZ I feel something, something that always reminds me that maybe this is the right time to help others especially the poor children  I may not be rich but I want to help people. Maybe this is the right for us to help and share our knowledge to others.

ayoko na! nakakatakot!
ayoko dito!
ayoko na! nakakatakot!
ayoko dito!

madilom! maingay!
makulit hindi ko msaway
marami ang nagsasalita
lahat sila sabay sabay

di ko maintindihan
ano?! sabihin niyo!
teka ayusin niyo!
ang gulo hindi ko kayo maintindihan!

teka! tigilan niyo ang pagtawa
bata! huwag ka ng umiyak pa
lola tama na po ito na ang
teka! ano?! sino kayo?

bakit ang dami niyo?
huwag kayong sisigaw!
huwag kayong tatawa!
teka natatakot ako!
ano?! ano?!  ano
ba ang sinasai niyo?
BALIW AKO?!

Today May 21, 2011
There are a lot of predictions that today is the end of the world...
I just wanna ask why they are keep on telling that?
In my opinion its not true.... no one really knows when will the world end.
Why dont they just go home, read the BIBLE and analyze it, why there are a lot of people keeps on insisting that they really know when the world end are they saying that God is lying to us why God did'nt tell us when the world will really end.... Why are they keep on doing that scaring people. What do they want? They wanmt to stop the life of people because of that prophecy I don't know much but that's my opinion and my belief that it aint the end of the world. All we have to do is to pray do good and be good. If its really the end of the world ok buts if its not yet why dont we continue our life the way we do everyday. Im also afraid of what the other people says about that but prayer and faith in God is the key for us to be save.

When i was a kid, I always remember those unforgettable moments of my life. almost everybody around me, especially my classmates from elementary up to high school keeps on teasing me that I'm ugly, jagged teeth,weak,pathetic,loner,stupid even though their are not saying that to me verbally I can feel it and they can easily make me cry. I remember when I was in grade 5 I know that my adviser didn't want me to be one of the top 10 students because she thinks that I'm not a brainy student. Supposedly, it should be chad to be the top 10, because he's absent my former best friend talk to my adviser and I heard her shouting 'what? she? she's stupid' I know that she's angry. One time we are celebrating 'URBANIDAD'  and we are going to have a rally for the urbanity or good manners of the Filipino people especially the youth. We are on the row and my adviser just pull my blouse, shouting and angry saying 'Sandwich Style'. I know everyone is looking and laughing at me. I feel humiliated that time. When I'm alone inside our house I always say to myself that I'm nothing. I do nothing but to cry when people laugh at me, knock me down and humiliate me because I'm weak. I always write all my feelings on a piece of paper when I feel sack or depressed on something. But as the time goes by I am changing, when I was a kid I swear to myself that I will not be going to 'NOTHING AGAIN SOMEDAY I WILL BE SOMEBODY' I'm glad that I change now. I have talents,I also overcome my shyness somehow. When I was a fourth year student, I became a student teacher. I thought Biology but actually I supposedly to teach Filipino and Social Studies. I grabbed the opportunity to teach its kinda hard and my nerves are in twitter when I have to teach in front of the class at first because when you teach inside the class you should know the lesson,communicate with the class properly,get their attention,present your lesson plan to your supervisor . But above all, it is the most exciting part of my life being a fourth year student. I was also given a chance to join a contest, its Oratorical Contest of the English Week, where you have to deliver your lines correctly, I didn't win but I'm very grateful and for me its a privilege to be one of the contestants of the second year students in that particular event. I was given a certificate of participation. I reign as the 'Best Actress' of the class for acting so many roles. My former classmates was surprised because when we were elementary students, they know that I'm too bashful,always sits at the back of the class almost not talking to anybody. Now that I'm in college I should not stop working hard to reach my dreams. Maybe some of you thinks that I change my attitude. No I'm not, this is still me. I know myself And I'm thankful, because my family is always with me even though there are times that we are arguing on something. My best friend who is always there for me. To my best NZ friend who I owe everything 'THANK YOU SO MUCH'. To those people who thinks that they are nothing or losing their hope just always remember 'Don't give up! FIGHT! FIGHT! FIGHT!'

I thought i'll never going to be in love again
But why am I feeling this?
Sometimes Im sick and tired of everything,
Especially on love

I remember my vow that
I should focus myself on study
But why? why is this happening?
Why I fall for him and how?

Is it because he's handsome?
Is it because he's nice?
Is it because he's Im comfortable talking with him?
Or is it because he is my friend and he's
Always been there for me supporting me as a "Friend?"

I know this is not right!
This is not really right
To fall for this guy
Cause I have a lot of things to do

Than to be in love
Yeah! I know love is love
But I have to control this feelings
I know this feeling will fade
As the time goes by.

I don,t want to be hurt
Cause I never experience to have
A boyfriend since "BIRTH"
And I should not really fall in love
Cause I have a lot of goals in life

I should finish everything
Before I enter a relationship
Is that such a crime?
I hope there are people who will
Understand me and tell me of whta
Should I do caused Im really confused!

"oh my gosh! sometimes i feel sorry for myself"

i never experience to have a boyfriend since birth thats why i am teasing by my friends cause for them to have a boyfriend is a trophy that you should be proud of. for me, having a boyfriend is not included in my vocabulary this time. boyfriend as in friend that's fine with me.

for me friendship is like a diamond that will last forever if you take care for it,
i have a bestfriend and we are happy together we are fond of doing crazy thing just like ahm singing in out of the tune but she is sometimes fond of making jokes on me like saying that me and SADAKO are TWINS.
In friendship just be true to each other.